The Very Inspirational Blogger Award

Thank you to the lovely Krista at Tiny n Fit for bestowing this award upon me.

I’m always flattered when I receive blog awards, especially when I feel they’re given to me sincerely and not as part of a numbers game. I try to maintain a certain amount of integrity here on my blog, and so for that reason, I’m going to bend the rules here a bit. I’ll tell you a few things about myself like I’m supposed to, and then I’ll pass this award on… but only to a select few who I find truly inspiring. That said, I love all of the blogs I follow for their own unique reasons, and you can always find the complete list on my Blogroll, located on my Home Page sidebar.

Seven things about me:

1. I’ve recently discovered that I’m more introverted than extroverted. I’d always thought it was the other way around, but I can make so much more sense of myself now.

2. I’m twenty-six and I’m starting to see the finest of lines on my forehead and under my eyes. I fear that I will age like my mother (not well), but thankfully I look more like my father. I hope that works in my favour.

3. I’m kind of an irritable person. I blame it on the fact that I’m impatient. For this reason, I’m not sure I will ever be very good at motherhood.

4. I like country music, and muddy trucks, and driving on dirt roads, and shooting guns, and breathing clean mountain air, and swimming in rivers, and cutting down my own Christmas tree.

5. I. CAN’T. STOP. SHOPPING. I starting to think it’s legitimately a problem.

6. I’m really intelligent, but people always seem surprised by that. I don’t know how I give the impression I’m not. Sometimes I think people assume I’m lazy and dumb because I’m overweight.

7. I have this burning desire to feel something… I want to experience life and love to the absolute maximum. I’ve been hurt a lot, but I’m always opening myself back up because I just can’t imagine life without passion. Every time I love, I love a little bit harder.

 

My Inspirational Bloggers:

1. This Broken Heart Has Hope

It’s no secret that I consider T one of my best friends, but I do not follow her blog because of that. As a matter of fact, what makes it special is that she’s become one of my best friends because of her blog. When she writes, it’s real. It’s from her heart. There’s no embellishments, just her raw emotions. I find her honesty inspiring, and I strive to maintain that same feel on my own blog.

2. According to Me

Shannon has also become one of my close friends, but she has taught me far more about life than she realizes. Through her blog she’s exposed things she’s not proud of and places she may have made a wrong step… and I love her for it. Reading Shannon’s blog and getting to know her as a person has given me a greater awareness that we are all human, we all make mistakes, and there is no room for judgement in friendship.

3. Adventures in Babysitting… Men

I’m linking to Amy’s blog because shit dudes, if I had gone through half the shit this girl has in her love life… I’m not sure I’d get out of bed in the morning. That in and of itself is inspiring.

A Hot Bath

I decided I was going to have a “me” night, tonight. I’ve been wanting needing one for a while and tonight was my only free night to do it.

So, I left work just a little bit later than normal (instead of a lot more), I came home, I had dinner while I read a couple of blogs and watched TV, and then I tossed some salts into a hot bath and had a good soak. I had intended to start this new book I bought a month or two back, but by the time I got into the tub, the last thing I wanted to do was read. I read all day… emails, files, documents, blogs, newspapers, Facebook, Twitter. Instead, I closed my eyes, let my body relax, and I let my mind wander…

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What will improve in my life after I’ve lost weight?

1) Shopping. I can buy all the most stylish clothes and they’ll actually look good on my body

2) More energy

3) I’ll probably sleep better

4) I’ll want to put more effort into my appearance (on a more regular basis). I like to get glammed up now, but even when I feel like a million bucks, I see myself in a photo afterwards and I just want to cry

5) More photogenic!

6) I won’t have to spend money on extenders for my jewelry because my wrist is just a little too thick for that fabulous new bracelet

7) I’ll feel great! My body won’t feel weighed down by the food I’m putting into it or the lack of exercise

8 ) Less body pain

9) Probably less migraines, except for the ones caused by the weather changes here in the rocky mountains (chinook-head as we call it)

10) My “beastly calves” (as my brother so kindly calls them) won’t have so much to lug around, but all the muscle from lugging me around will instead be able to carry my new body to all sorts of fantastic places…

11) I’ll be able to see more of the world, because I’ll have more energy & stamina

12) I’ll find out what this pretty face looks like without all that extra pudge

13) My dating pool will open up. I can start dating guys who I actually want to date

14) More sex

15) Better sex

16) More comfortable in my own skin (literally)

17) I can have my confidence back

18) I can relax and let my personality show through without wanting to remain invisible in a crowd

19) If I choose to have kids someday, I’ll be better equipped to both keep up with them, and be a better role model

20) I can play sports again!

21) I won’t cringe every time I look in the mirror

22) I won’t have to deal with everyone sticking their nose in my business because they want to “help” (I’m not stupid, I’m fat!)

23) Breaking through my weight might give me the confidence to explore other passions (career, hobbies, etc).

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What aspects of my life will be worse off if I lose weight?

1) I’m going to go broke purchasing a new wardrobe.

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SoccerMom wrote a post today about feeling depleted and she mentioned that her husband is worried about her. I wonder if I had a husband, if he would be worried about all the ways I’m over-extending myself right now. As it stands, nobody notices when I don’t come home from work until 9pm, when I’m so tired I have a meltdown, or how much I’m stressing about whatever’s on my mind. It might be nice to have someone to worry. Then again, it might also be a huge pain in the rear.

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I have got to stop stressing over things that are beyond my control, or things that just shouldn’t be stressed over… I have to stop letting my anxiety be a trigger for stress… and I need to find a way to loosen up and not take things personally.

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I have got to figure out if I really want to buy a house, or if that desire has always stemmed from my anxiety and my need to feel secure in my surroundings. Maybe I should be focusing my extra cash on saving up to do some travelling instead.

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I’m going to try and get to sleep a little earlier tonight.

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THE END.