Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined. ~Henry David Thoreau

I felt a great sense of accomplishment today as I registered for more university courses. I completed my first course last week and I’ll complete certificate one of two by mid-September. By the end of the year I’ll have both certificates resulting in the formal education I need to position myself for a leadership position at work. Yesterday, I got a phone call from someone at the adoption centre, to verify some information for my criminal record check. I’m hopeful that this means the intake worker is finally reviewing my application, after 9 weeks of waiting. Last month I looked at seven homes for sale, and I took the next step towards closing out my father’s estate. It feels great knowing that my plan is coming together. I tend to be great at the planning phase but not so good at the execution, but these are things I’m passionate about; things I really want.

Today one of my best friends received the key to her new home. This happened shortly after a long awaited career move. In September, my family will welcome the first baby of our generation (born to one of my cousins). My best friend is on her second career and her oldest son just got his learner’s license. A couple of my friends are getting divorced, and a lot more are showing their age on their faces. Seeing these milestones makes me really proud; proud of our accomplishments and proud of our mistakes. I’m proud that we’re doing the things we always dreamed of, and that things are panning out just as we’d always hoped and often felt neglected by. That girl who thought no one would ever love her has found the love of her life. That couple who worked so hard to buy a home finally has. That eighteen year old staring into the eyes of her newborn baby boy has raised him well.

It’s so great to see where we’re ending up, and the direction we’re building our lives.

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined. ~Henry David Thoreau

A Little Hesitation

Well it’s December 31st and I’m taking another moment to reflect on the past year. If you’ve read the year-end post I did a couple weeks ago you know that 2009 was a huge growing year for me. It was also a fast year. I remember in spring everyone was talking about how quickly the year was progressing at that point, and I don’t think it ever slowed down. Not for me, anyway.

The other day I overheard a couple women in my office talking about how terrible 2009 has been for everyone. There were health issues for some, money issues for a lot, and tonnes of people out of work. For most people 2009 seemed to have a dark cloud over it, but not for me. For me, this was the year of growing. It was the year of independence and freedom and embracing liberty. This was my year.

As I look back on 2009, I’m a little sad to see it go. My Sagittarian nature means I get bored quickly and I embrace change and new experiences and that’s exactly how I’ve felt over the last few weeks, but now that it’s here the only feeling I have is fear. I’m scared to move forward because I don’t know what 2010 will bring. I think good things are to come, but how can one be sure?

I can’t be sure- and that’s why I’ll stand up straight, put my shoulders back, and jump right in. I’ll embrace 2010 and whatever it brings with it. If 2009 taught me anything, it’s that I can hack it.

Happy New Year, peeps!

“I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it’s not the answer.”  ~Jim Carrey

Another Clean Slate: 2010

I wasn’t going to publish this post until closer to the new year but it seems I’m being nagged about it so here you are: :)

There’s nothing I like better than a clean slate. You might call it OCD if you really knew me, but I call it an annoyance with clutter. Clutter on the kitchen counter, clutter in my house, clutter in my life. Nothing makes me feel better than wiping down those surfaces and having things put away neat and tidy. This year I’ve tidied up many aspects of my life which I’m quite proud of. What a fabulous year 2009 has been for me. In accordance with the mandatory year-end post laws, here is a list of all the things I’ve accomplished this year:

1) I stopped being bitter and angry with my ex. This time last year I was still sorting out our joint finances as well as lot of leftover emotions. I felt as though I would never be completely rid of him, it was one thing after another and it was eating away at my happiness. I finally made the decision to eat the financial costs myself and cut him out of my life completely. My banker wasn’t particularly happy about it, but this was by far the best decision I’ve ever made for myself. That leads me to number 2.

2) I paid off a lot of debt. I felt like I was living in a box some days but I got it done. I am now a lot more confident in my abilities to make good life and financial decisions. I learned to never ever join my finances with another person and to maintain my own credit. I also started building my assets, which feels pretty freaking awesome.

3) I’ve built confidence in my career. I have good relationships with my co-workers and my supervisors. My boss appreciates me and gives me a lot of responsibilities, all of my performance reviews have been stellar, and I’ve been rewarded with pay increases and bonuses. I’m taking courses to better my knowledge in my career, and I’m training for a new position. I also volunteered with my department Manager to do a meet-and-greet with new enrollees in a college program that we recruit from. That was a huge accomplishment for me and I really had to challenge myself to get out there and speak in public about what I do.

4) I took vacations. This doesn’t really seem like an “accomplishment” but for someone who never really took any as a kid and who couldn’t afford to as an adult, this was big for me. They were small and I didn’t go far- but the point was that I was finally able to get out there and experience things. I can’t wait to do that again this year!

5) I read the “bitch book”. That is the term T and myself use for Why Men Love Bitches by Sherry Argov. This book has become my bible. It’s not about being a bitch to snag a man, it’s more about knowing your worth and standing your ground and not letting people walk all over you. This book gave me back some of the confidence that I had lost after my previous relationship, and its theories have been tested by both T and I and THEY WORK! Haha

6) I’m taking better care of myself. Okay, I haven’t gone leaps and bounds with this one yet but I’m working on it. I’ve been eating a bit better, exercising a little more, and doing other things like getting periodic massages and bothering to put on make-up every day. I don’t know if I’m making progress on this because I’m happier or if I’m happier because I’m making progress on this, but I think it’s the former. I’m just generally taking a greater interest in putting myself first, and I’ve realized that it’s okay to be a little selfish sometimes.

7) I literally de-cluttered. This year I threw away dozens of bags of crap I don’t use or need anymore. I got rid of old furniture and bought nicer, newer pieces. I got rid of anything that even slightly reminded me of my ex, and anything with significant sentimental or financial value (jewelry, a wedding invitation, the glasses we toasted with when he proposed) I either gave to a girlfriend to hold on to for me, or I boxed up tightly and put out of sight. This reminds me of that song… *I can see clearly now, the rain is gone*.

8 ) I came to terms with my Grandma dying. Her passing on January 2nd/09 started my year off pretty crappy and I have struggled to remember how she was before she got sick, but I think I have managed to sort it out in my head now. Writing the post A Tribute to a Wonderful Woman really helped me to remember the way she was, and the sound of her laugh.

9) I discovered that I really like yam’s. They’ve got to be cooked thoroughly though. Thanks to CH for practically shoving them down my throat the last time I was in Vancouver (okay not literally).

10) I am once again room-mate free! I haven’t lived alone since before my ex moved in with me (~3 years) and it is a great feeling. I love not having anyone to clean up after or to get mad if I don’t take the garbage out the minute I tie up the bag. And, last but not least…

11) I started this blog and by doing so, found a way to not only express myself, but to make new friends. I’m so glad to have all my “blog buddies”. I hope you stick around.

 

Even though I accomplished so much in 2009, there is always more to be done. In no particular order, here’s what I want to accomplish in 2010:

1) Keep blogging. I got to 2000+ hits in less than 10 months, most of them being in the last 3, so maybe by the end of 2010 I can be at 5000. I don’t really write this blog to see how many people I can get to read it, but I like a good challenge, and this might keep me motivated.

2) Drink a little less alcohol. I don’t drink often but when I do, I can throw them back pretty good. I’m getting old though (haha) and my body is a little less tolerant than it used to be. Let’s scale that back a few beers. Sorry Molson.

3) Make some new friends. Sure, I have friends- but life goes on and people go down different roads. Last year I cut some people out of my life- not because they were bad people or because I don’t like them anymore, but because maybe they weren’t good for me, or they weren’t making me feel good when I was around them. This year, I need to find some new people who brighten my day.

4) Go on some more vacations. Anywhere. To see anybody. Just experience life :) I’ll definately be making my way through Vancouver to see CH, and then the island to see M… but that’s all I’ve got planned so far. Maybe I’ll make a trip to Cincinatti, Cleveland, Boston, or Florida to visit my family there and get to know them a little better. I could always go to Oregon or California to see the other side of the family. So many options I never knew I had.

5) Learn to spell the word definitely without having to spell check. That second “i” trips me up every time.

6) Continue building my financial assets. I am woman, hear me ROAR.

7) Get the oxygen sensors on my jeep fixed so that stupid check engine lights goes off. Oh, and don’t accept any more stupid dares from my brother, like driving through mud puddles that turn out to be mud pits. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

8 ) Get promoted! I’ve recently received a technical promotion by training to be someone’s back-up, but at some point this year I should be taking over his position completely. Hopefully this means another raise before the end of 2010.

 
 

What woman doesn't live for a little interior design?

9) Replace some more furniture. I think this year it’ll be a new couch, and entertainment unit.

10) Get more massages. I didn’t “up” my benefits for nothing, I’ve got to take advantage of that. Plus, it’ll help with my pressure headaches when the weather changes. Stupid Calgary.

A Little Remembrance

Well that’s it! I don’t really have anything pressing to worry about in 2010. Man that’s weird, what will I do with myself? Most of my friends are going away for the holidays and I’ve been debating what to do for New Years. Usually NY kind of sucks and this year I wanted to do something great. Well, I doubt it will be “great” but I think this year I’ll go home. Going over my accomplishments from ‘09 made me realize that it might be nice to mark the 1 year of my Grandma passing by paying her a little visit. Maybe I’ll go home and make an effort to spend a little time with my older brother, God know’s we have a lot of getting to know each other to do. Even if I don’t, it’ll be nice to enjoy the fresh mountain air for a few days. 

Have a GREAT 2010!