Just some Mid-September Updates

Some updates in puke-on-the-page style, because I just took NyQuil and am falling asleep…

1) A couple of weeks ago I left The Italian a voicemail saying I was checking in to see how he was feeling (he had a cold). This morning I told him I was staying home because I wasn’t feeling well. He phoned tonight after work to ask how I was feeling and wish me sweet dreams. I was in awe by the sweetness of this because it was thoughtful and because we don’t usually talk on the phone. I’m glad to know I set a precedent of sorts. I’m also reminded of all the sweet things Y did for me… before he cheated on me… and then the scepticism creeps in and I’m just confused. I guess it’ll be a while before that goes away.

2) I’m trying to be open to The Italian as more than a rebound boyfriend. He’s acting as though he legitimately likes me, and I don’t want to miss an opportunity because my head is somewhere else. Besides, he made some crack the other day about me not noticing him even when he was sitting right beside me. Oops. That said, I’m still taking it slow… really, I have no choice. I’m just not in a position to jump right in with my heart.

3) I should have the keys to my new place by the end of this weekend. I’m so excited, I can’t wait to have my own space again. I’ve been decorating it on Pinterest all day.

4) I tried to shave my 100 pound dog today, so she wouldn’t shed so much in my new place. She looks horrid. Poor thing.

5) Therapy is going pretty well. She’s given me some good tips for handling my anxiety. To be honest, it’s just nice to be able to talk to someone who knows how to ask the right questions.

6) The meds are keeping me level and keeping the anxiety at bay as well. If only I could remember to take them every day. I’ve been bad about that this week.

7) Y’s best friends fiancé has been inviting me over for coffee then rescheduling last minute. She’s not very organized, but she desperately wants to be my friend and she hates Y. She told me she wants me to attend their wedding. Yeah… awkward much?

8) Speaking of Y… people keep asking me if he went back to Turkey. Honestly, I don’t know. I think he’s still here, but I’ve done my best to block all thoughts of him out of my mind completely (survival tactic). I really don’t want to talk about him yet. I still just can’t go there. It will probably be years before I can think back on it and not be hurt. I know there’s a lesson in there somewhere, but it will be longer, if ever, before I figure out what it is.

9) I deactivated my Facebook before I went on my vacation to Florida, and aside from a couple of times I logged in quickly to search for an address, photo etc., it’s still deactivated. I don’t really miss it like I thought I would. I needed to disconnect. I’ve been living my life more.

10) I’ve been busy as all hell… and on purpose. I have been making a point of getting out with friends as much as possible, spending time with The Italian once or twice a week, and making efforts to progress my life and just be happy.

11) I had the most amazing vacation. Visiting my family (who I’d mostly never met) was awesome! They were so much fun, and I saw some amazing places (Siesta Key Beach in Sarasota was by far the most gorgeous place I’ve ever seen). To be honest, it was nice to spend a few days with people who didn’t know anything about my recent breakup. No one asked questions, I didn’t have to explain anything, and I just got a break from it! The last half of my trip was phenomenal too! I got to catch up with a friend from high school who I’ve really been missing. We had such a nice time re-connecting and just hanging out. I loved every minute of it!! It was so nice to see the life she’s built for herself and to get to be a part of it for a few days. My vacation was exactly the break I’d been hoping for.

12) Two weeks from today I board a plane for Chicago, where I get to meet some of my best friends for the first time. Me and four of my best blogger girlfriends in the same room… finally. It seems surreal. We have a lot of fun stuff planned for the weekend, but honestly I would be happy to sit on the floor beside them, painting our toenails and having girl chat all weekend. I can’t wait. And no, I’m not nervous in the least. What’s there to be nervous about? They’re my best friends. :)

13) I’ve passed the point of no return with the NyQuil.

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16 thoughts on “Just some Mid-September Updates

  1. I’ve often thought about deleting facebook as well… It’s just drama I don’t need! Tired of the things people post too. I’m glad you got away though and had the vacation you wanted. It’s definitely nice to get away sometimes. Have fun in Chicago! It’s an AMAZING city. Be sure to have pizza at either Giordano’s or I think it’s called Gina’s East. I ate at Giordano’s and it was life changing. haha. Congrats on the new place too! Yay for decorating! I plan on painting my apt at some point too.

    • I really don’t miss Facebook!! I thought it would be really hard but I’m finding life is so much more peaceful without all of the updates. Also, my friends are getting in touch more often because they can’t read all about me on Facebook. Plus, I’m not spending time worried an update regarding one of my ex’s is going to pop up. I don’t need that shit!

  2. I love your updates! I am so excited to meet you too and the other girls! It’s going to be so much fun. And I am really excited for your move! Everything seems to be falling into place. XO

  3. I’m so proud of you for posting while on NyQuil because I didn’t know my name last night. Asleep by 9. Woohoo. You sound like you have just completley embraced life lately and are on a great path! Love it! And I cna’t wait to see you soon!!! For real hugs!

  4. I’ve been meaning to ask you about Facebook! I had to show my parents what you girls look like so my dad can find you if I don’t return. ;)

  5. I hope that you’re proud of yourself for how you’re handling everything. You’re wise to be cautious, but open, with the Italian. It will be great for you to be in your own place. And, Chicago will be amazing! Email if you need anything. xoxo

  6. It was so, so amazing to have you visit. I’m glad we got time to chill and have some laughs – I think it was very therapeutic for us both! Looking forward to the next one, be it here or there.
    In the meantime, I’m looking forward to reading about the continuing saga of Mr. GQ. LOL
    Love you, girl! Xoxo

  7. Ok well obviously I have some catching up to do. I didn’t realize you’d broken up with Y. I was reading your most recent post about the Italian and thinking… wasn’t he from Turkey?

    Anyway… just have fun for now, girl. You’re fully deserving of it.

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