Remaining Open to Love (or Something Like It)

When my Dad passed away last year, I had created two lists. One was of things to do in 2012, and the other was a list called “living for Dad”. Sometime yesterday during my flight back from Florida, boredom kicked in and I took to consolidating the notes saved in my iPhone. When I clicked into those notes, a common theme of both was that of  remaining open to love, and letting myself be loved, no matter how hard it may be. That took me back to where I was ten months ago, lonely and beginning to long for someone to come home to at the end of the day, with no idea what was in store for the next year.

I was open to a man who was nothing like other men I’d dated, someone who challenged me and opened my eyes to whole new worlds… and even though that relationship came to a rather harsh end, I am proud of myself for being open to it at all. I loved, I lived, I learned, and at the end of the day… I am still standing here with a bruised, but open heart.

“Love, and let myself be loved. Once, twice, a million times. Leave that door open no matter how hard it may be.” -IntrigueMe, Living for Dad

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12 thoughts on “Remaining Open to Love (or Something Like It)

  1. What a good idea to write a list, or in your case two, after the death of your dad. I am still coming to terms with the death of my father just over six months ago. He is with me in the little things I do everyday and I try to live my life in a way that would make him proud.

    • …and I’m certain that you do. :)
      Grief comes differently for each of us, but I think knowing they’re with us all the time has always comforted me. I hope that will help you as well.
      Much love your way, and my email address is on my blog if you ever want to send me a note. :)

      • Thank you for your kind offer. I have written about the loss of my dad and just recently returned from a trip to SD where my dad grew up. I am healing one day at a time.

  2. I think Dogbert said it best when he said, “Dance like it hurts. Love like you need money. Work when there’s somebody watching.”

    Good for you for not allowing yourself to become more cynical/jaded as a result of your recent experiences. Staying open to the possibility of goodness matters.

  3. This gave me chills, friend. you are turning around big time from such a heart ache. And I agree with INRIS, you are not becoming cynical or jaded, you are staying open. that in itself is huge.

  4. YES! That’s exactly the realization I came to after my breakup with my Soldier. It felt good to know that I could still love with abandon. Reckless abandon even! LOL!

    Sending you love and hugs.

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